I come to you with a thankful heart. Thankful to God for His wisdom and His great love towards me. For now I know the reason for my difficulties with this blog and with my writing, in general.
My sister, who is a pastor, gave me a word from the Lord today. She told me that I was going through a breaking process. That God has to break me before He can use me to bring about His God-inspired words that He has inside me. That was a moment of epiphany for me.
I just couldn’t understand why it was so hard for me to write when writing was the one thing that had always come very easily for me. So easily that I had developed a rather smug attitude about it. I am sure that my pride was one reason why the Lord is taking me this way on my journey of life. That pride must be broken. And, boy, is it being broken! I am having to completely depend upon the Holy Spirit to give me what to write. Without Him, I can do nothing, as Jesus stated in His word.
God will share His glory with no man. My attitude towards my writing was in direct opposition to God. I was the one in control. Not Him. I was the one who decided what to write and then wrote with ease, not realizing that it was a God-given talent and not myself that kept my writing fresh and good. This past year has shown me that in myself, I am nothing. Without the inspiration of the Holy Ghost and the approval of God Himself, I may as well hang up my writing shingle because it is not going to happen.
I am humbled. Humbled because my pride has taken a blow. I hope it is a death blow, for I do not want pride operating in my life and especially not in my heart. I repent to the Lord and ask Him to cleanse me from my sin. I thank God that His word says that if we 1confess our sins, He is faithful to forgive us and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9)
I thank God for loving me enough to show me who I am. And I thank Him for loving me in spite of my weaknesses and frailties. That’s why He is God. And that is why I love Him so much. Who wouldn’t want to serve a God like Him?
Oh, blessed be the Name of the Lord.