My heart is filled with wonder right now. See me as I gaze with wonder at the face of God.
I had been feeling out of sorts and all alone today. My anxiety level was high and I did not know what to do with myself and I was in this state for most of the day. Until I got into the word of God. Before I did that, I got on my knees to talk to Him first, but He let me know in no uncertain terms that it was in His word that I would find what I was looking for.
I was looking for Him. I had felt as though He was being silent towards me again. I got a bit flustered because it is the Lord that I want more than anything in this world. I want to be close to Him at all times. So, when I felt far away from him, I became discouraged. But I should have known that when those feelings came upon me, that was only a trick of the enemy. Of sstupid ssatan, himself. For when I got into the word, I found encouragement and strength.
I refused to take an anxiety pill. I was determined to find my peace with the Lord in the pages of my bible and that is precisely what happened to me. I cried as I came across this passage: “For I said in my haste, I am cut off from before thine eyes: nevertheless thou heardest the voice of my supplications when I cried unto thee.” (Ps.31:22) Because that is precisely what I had experienced. In my haste, I said that God was not hearing me and I was alone, but He pointed out to me that He heard me and that made me cry.
Oh, God is so good. If you do not know Him, you are missing out on the greatest experience of all time. He is so full of compassion and love.
Oh, see me as I love on my Lord. He heard me. And He comforted me. I will forever be grateful for HIs presence and His kindness toward me.
Oh, blessed be the Name of the Lord.